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I can't sleep this bites. I was to have a big day today but since I can't sleep I am going to have to tell my daughter that our fun day isn't going to happen. Maybe we can find something fun to do local instead

Easter, Rock and rolling

Today we were having a great Easter lunch with friends when what happens but an earthquake. Now having earth quakes in southern California is not a big thing. I am sure I have been through 100's of them, but today was a bit different. The size of this earth quake was 7.2 and was about 100 miles south east of where I live. Most of the earth quake I have been through are a few seconds of shaking or rolling at the most, Today's quake went on and on and on. It had to be 25 or 30 seconds. Now I know what some people are thinking that isn't long at all but when you don't know what is going to happen next like is the house going to fall over or is a gas line going to break and we are going to blow up 25 seconds is FOREVER. My friends have a pool in the back yard and we watched the water move all around in the pool and we thought is was all going to splash out. Thanks goodness we are all OK and nothing but a farmed picture fell at my friends house. My home was fine and nothing was broken. Some area's around town have broken windows, friends who live east of us about 90 miles had more happen with glass wear broken, TV's that fell and other things happen in there homes. No deaths that I now of in San Diego but I do know that where the quake hit in Mexcali will probably be a different story. Pray that these people who live in the hard hit area are ok!

Job hunting

I knew it might be tough to find a job but it is turning out to be tougher than I thought it was going to be. I have been job hunting, searching, looking what ever you call it for months now and I haven't found a job yet. I am tired of looking for a job and would love for a job to fall into my lap. I did find something tonight that looks good and will send in a resume tomorrow morning. I hope that I hear something from one of the jobs I have applied for.

old friend maybe not anymore

I have a friend (maybe she isn't a friend anymore) that hasn't spoken to me in many many years. Ok i take that back she did return a phone call this past summer but it was the first time in something like 7 years. We talked for a bit and then she had to go. She said she would call me that weekend. That was August of 2009 and I still haven't had a call back or even a email. I keep telling myself that she will someday return my call, email or show up on my doorstep. I don't seem to be able to let her go. About a year or so ago I had a dream that she showed up on my doorstep with her daughter and wanted to stay with me for awhile. I had a feeling this past weekend that, that still might happen. Why is it I can't let her go? It is me that is pushing this relationship and clearly she doesn't want it. Someone tell me why I can't let her go. It drives me nuts. I don't know why she stopped talking with me and if there was something I had done to make her want to stop.
Ok venting done.

this that and other things. May a bit of balance would help.

I haven't posted for a few weeks. I can't believe I am this busy and unemployed. First as a single mom I get to do it all. Cooking, cleaning, shopping, getting the car serviced, taking the cats to the vet, making sure my daughter has when she needs and yes sometimes getting a few minutes to myself. So when I became unemployed last year I thought wow some down time for me. Well sure I get a few extra minutes to myself when I can get my daughter to sleep past 6am or when I make time to read, but wow I am not sure how I got it all done when I had a job. I still don't seem to get it all finished now. Yes I get to sleep until 6:30 am now instead of 5:45am if I am lucky and my child plays in her room but OMG I don't get it. I still have stuff that I am behind on and I am not working. Ok I vented and feel that much better now.

I belong to the career center as per unemployment's request and now just belonging to the career center is a job in itself. They gave me this pre-employment test that an employer might give to get a base line on where you are at. Well I know I have never done well on math and I fell flat on my face with the math part of the test. They said I should bulk up my math skills and I should go and have a review at the GED prep class that they have. Well I heard that and said wait I finished school many years ago....well I went and I am reviewing fractions. Oh crap I now know why I didn't like math. FRACTION suck. I haven't used a fraction since high school and I don't know if I ever will but I now know how to add, subtract, mulitly and divide fractions. Since I am going to this class I haven't had as much time to look for a job. I need to find a balance between looking for a job, taking this class, doing other things for the career center that they have asked me to do, picking my daughter up by 2 and getting all the stuff around my house done. Oh and making it to my WW meetings. I don't seem to have enough time. I guess I really need to find a job and then maybe I will have time to get thigs done.
Wish me luck and say a little pray that I find a great job soon.

Old friends

I am going to see an old friend tomorrow that I haven't seen in 24 or so years. We reconnected via a friend on Facebook. Got to love facebook, you can find almost anyone that wants to be found. Sometimes people find you that you wish you hadn't found you but you take the good with the bad. We lost contact when we were still in high school. We had met through a church youth camp. We lived in different states and we both looked for to seeing each other about 3 times a year, maybe a few other times a year at youth weekends. Then one camp he didn't come and I don't know what happened. I guess I will find out tomorrow when we have coffee. I also don't know if his wife is going to come or not. I would really like to meet her. She sounds wonderful and as he puts it he found someone that will put up with his shit. I love that since I knew way back when he could pull a lot of shit. :)

5th Birthday

Tomorrow is my little ones 5th birthday. I can't believe how she has grown. She brings light, joy and love to my life.

Happy Birthday my mouse!