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I can't sleep this bites. I was to have a big day today but since I can't sleep I am going to have to tell my daughter that our fun day isn't going to happen. Maybe we can find something fun to do local instead

Easter, Rock and rolling

Today we were having a great Easter lunch with friends when what happens but an earthquake. Now having earth quakes in southern California is not a big thing. I am sure I have been through 100's of them, but today was a bit different. The size of this earth quake was 7.2 and was about 100 miles south east of where I live. Most of the earth quake I have been through are a few seconds of shaking or rolling at the most, Today's quake went on and on and on. It had to be 25 or 30 seconds. Now I know what some people are thinking that isn't long at all but when you don't know what is going to happen next like is the house going to fall over or is a gas line going to break and we are going to blow up 25 seconds is FOREVER. My friends have a pool in the back yard and we watched the water move all around in the pool and we thought is was all going to splash out. Thanks goodness we are all OK and nothing but a farmed picture fell at my friends house. My home was fine and nothing was broken. Some area's around town have broken windows, friends who live east of us about 90 miles had more happen with glass wear broken, TV's that fell and other things happen in there homes. No deaths that I now of in San Diego but I do know that where the quake hit in Mexcali will probably be a different story. Pray that these people who live in the hard hit area are ok!

Job hunting

I knew it might be tough to find a job but it is turning out to be tougher than I thought it was going to be. I have been job hunting, searching, looking what ever you call it for months now and I haven't found a job yet. I am tired of looking for a job and would love for a job to fall into my lap. I did find something tonight that looks good and will send in a resume tomorrow morning. I hope that I hear something from one of the jobs I have applied for.

old friend maybe not anymore

I have a friend (maybe she isn't a friend anymore) that hasn't spoken to me in many many years. Ok i take that back she did return a phone call this past summer but it was the first time in something like 7 years. We talked for a bit and then she had to go. She said she would call me that weekend. That was August of 2009 and I still haven't had a call back or even a email. I keep telling myself that she will someday return my call, email or show up on my doorstep. I don't seem to be able to let her go. About a year or so ago I had a dream that she showed up on my doorstep with her daughter and wanted to stay with me for awhile. I had a feeling this past weekend that, that still might happen. Why is it I can't let her go? It is me that is pushing this relationship and clearly she doesn't want it. Someone tell me why I can't let her go. It drives me nuts. I don't know why she stopped talking with me and if there was something I had done to make her want to stop.
Ok venting done.

this that and other things. May a bit of balance would help.

I haven't posted for a few weeks. I can't believe I am this busy and unemployed. First as a single mom I get to do it all. Cooking, cleaning, shopping, getting the car serviced, taking the cats to the vet, making sure my daughter has when she needs and yes sometimes getting a few minutes to myself. So when I became unemployed last year I thought wow some down time for me. Well sure I get a few extra minutes to myself when I can get my daughter to sleep past 6am or when I make time to read, but wow I am not sure how I got it all done when I had a job. I still don't seem to get it all finished now. Yes I get to sleep until 6:30 am now instead of 5:45am if I am lucky and my child plays in her room but OMG I don't get it. I still have stuff that I am behind on and I am not working. Ok I vented and feel that much better now.

I belong to the career center as per unemployment's request and now just belonging to the career center is a job in itself. They gave me this pre-employment test that an employer might give to get a base line on where you are at. Well I know I have never done well on math and I fell flat on my face with the math part of the test. They said I should bulk up my math skills and I should go and have a review at the GED prep class that they have. Well I heard that and said wait I finished school many years ago....well I went and I am reviewing fractions. Oh crap I now know why I didn't like math. FRACTION suck. I haven't used a fraction since high school and I don't know if I ever will but I now know how to add, subtract, mulitly and divide fractions. Since I am going to this class I haven't had as much time to look for a job. I need to find a balance between looking for a job, taking this class, doing other things for the career center that they have asked me to do, picking my daughter up by 2 and getting all the stuff around my house done. Oh and making it to my WW meetings. I don't seem to have enough time. I guess I really need to find a job and then maybe I will have time to get thigs done.
Wish me luck and say a little pray that I find a great job soon.

Old friends

I am going to see an old friend tomorrow that I haven't seen in 24 or so years. We reconnected via a friend on Facebook. Got to love facebook, you can find almost anyone that wants to be found. Sometimes people find you that you wish you hadn't found you but you take the good with the bad. We lost contact when we were still in high school. We had met through a church youth camp. We lived in different states and we both looked for to seeing each other about 3 times a year, maybe a few other times a year at youth weekends. Then one camp he didn't come and I don't know what happened. I guess I will find out tomorrow when we have coffee. I also don't know if his wife is going to come or not. I would really like to meet her. She sounds wonderful and as he puts it he found someone that will put up with his shit. I love that since I knew way back when he could pull a lot of shit. :)

5th Birthday

Tomorrow is my little ones 5th birthday. I can't believe how she has grown. She brings light, joy and love to my life.

Happy Birthday my mouse!

Appling and interviewing

I have a job fair coming up in a week and a bunch of employers to research. I went to how to work a job fair yesterday and got a lot of good information. I got my hair cut and looked for a new suit but I am just not the suit kind of person! What else should I wear? I just don't know what I will do about my dress yet. I seem not want to make the time to research the companies that are going to be at this job fair.

I need to get a job but with making a career change I just don't know what I want to do. What I had done for 20 plus years just doesn't have jobs anymore. I worked in the one hour photo business for many years and with digital the processing side of things have moved to online services (which is now what I use now), printing at home or not printing at all. It is a good thing I have been a supervisor and a manger so I will be able to do something with that. I want a job that I can love going to each day. About 5 years ago I had a job repairing the equipment and I loved doing that. I feel great when I can take something that isn't working and have it work when I am done with it.

Wish me luck!

Litter Patrol

A friend of mine shared on her blog about litter patrol that her and her kids did for her son's cub scouts. They took a walk to the park and along the way they picked up litter. She shared that her kids loved it (all 4 of them) and how they are going to do it again. I think it is a great idea, my daughter and I am going to start doing this.

If only more people did this in our world we won't have trash all over the place.

More resume writting

So I worked on my resume yesterday for about 3 hours. Why does the phone always ring when you are busy. I think more people called while I was working on my resume than called all last week. What is up with that. Did the world know I was busy and didn't have time to talk??
I did pretty good on my resume. I got it completed and then sent it out to my friends to read and help make changes..... Most people thought it was good and would work with minor changes. One person hated the whole thing. Oh well can't please everyone.
Today I am going to work on a informational resume. This one is where I list my skills and then list my employment at the bottom. I learned about the informational resume last week in a class I took. Up until now I have only had the one resume that listed my jobs and what I did at them. I hadn't written a resume in over 14 years so let me tell you that things have CHANGED. It is a bit over wheling to day the least.ok so I am off to work on the next resume.
I have a informational interview later today. Maybe a job will come of it!

resume

Wish me luck I am rewriting my resume today. I took a resume class last week and got lots of good information that I didn't have before. I have a resume but it needs improvement and I also found out I need at least two.
Over at unemployment they are going to have Cox in tomorrow so I am heading over there to find out about jobs.

Rain hail and what the heck

This week we have had the strangest weather. I live in Southern California and we don't see much rain or change in weather unless it is to HOT. I think we have had more rain in the last 5 days than we had in ALL of last year. Just a few minutes ago it hailed. Now I don't remember the last time it hailed here. I grew up here and moved away twice. I moved back for different reason each time but one of the reason was the weather. I love nice weather and I love it when it rains for a few hours but for days on end isn't fun. I can remember when I moved to Europe when I was 18 and the first time it snowed......I about cried. I went into a bar with friends and when I can out it was snowing and A LOT. The next day when I woke up there was about 4 feet of snow. It just happened that my dad called from California while I was out digging out the car. All he could do was laugh since he grew up where it snowed and knew that I was probably hating what I was doing since I was cold. Cold weather and I just don't get along.

rain

We had rain yesterday. Let just say we don't get much rain here so when we do get it the city freaks out. Yesterday it started raining about 3 and it poured. It rained so much in 2 hours that my patio flooded. I ended up going out in the rain and the small lake that was out in the patio to unblock the drain. Once that was done the lake drained out.
Things are looking better this week. I don't feel as down as I did and I am able to look forward.

A bit of background about me. I worked for the same company for 14 years and was laid off last June since the company was sold and the new company didn't need my department. Which was good since I didn't want to work for the new company anyways. The bad new is/was that there are 150 people for 1 new job. I decided to take a few months off since I could and it was summer so who wouldn't want to take a summer off. I am luck that I had saved money and the company gave me money when I left. I also have been collecting unemployment. Now that I am ready to go back to work I am finding it hard to even get a call back about any jobs I have applied for. I am learning that applying, interviewing and getting a job is totally different than it was 15 years ago. Resumes.....that is a whole different ball game in itself these days. OMG you have to have something like 5 different resumes and then when you apply for a job you need to tailor your resume for that job alone with writing a cover letter. I have been so out of the loop it is over whelming for me. Wish me luck as I go out there to find that job that is the right one!

bad day!

My first post! I started this blog to put feeling and words to paper. Today is a bad day. Last night I told I friend I would help her (I am the type of person that pushes everything aside to help my friends) I shouldn't have said yes. Because I told her I would I did and I missed a class I should have been at. I can make up the class next week without any problems but it was the one class I wanted to take out of the 5 I am taking. I need to learn how to put myself first. It is great to help friends but all the same I have to learn how to help myself also. So today I feel bad. All I want to do is go into the closet and not come out for days but I can't. I have to pick up kids, play with them and then take them back to there mom and get my own into bed without losing it. I know that I will get though it.